it really doesn't matter if anyone reads this...actually it would be really nice lol...I just encountered something in Robert Kiyosaki's book entitled "If You Want To Be Rich & Happy Don't Go To School?" his words struck me...That education is the root of all problems...Like when he said that

-if you did well in school or your child is doing well in school, how many number of children do you think that the system is failing, even if they remain in school?

-Do you have any idea what goes through child's mind at the age of seven when an adult classifies him/her as "not as smart as?" Have you ever thought about how that must feel or how that emotional scar effect over a lifetime? (that actually hit me because i keep on remembering my teacher in grade school telling me that i'm not that smart)

-How many dreams are crushed and forgotten is school when a child learns that only the "smart students" get showered with attention?
(so true and some gets their heads big and some even can't freakin except failure because they expect to much and compare thier freakin selves to others who they think doesn't deserve what should have been theirs...come 'on everyone needs their break too! it's not always the smart and gifted kids who get's the center stage)

so on...

I can say that i myself experienced many hardships, failures, tears, even suicidal attempts at the age of 7 i almost burn myself because i wanted to die coz my mom can't make me smart enough lol...of course she doesn't know that...luckily she went back when she saw me staring blankly with a burning paper on my hand and that had stopped my 8pm to 2am hell lecture of endless memorizing...

i hated the fact that they all compared me to my cousins, siblings and my very smart brother...i grow up in freakin rejections...i hated my school because they won't give chance to others...it's always the smart ones who are better...i hate boastful people the most...i alway pray that someday they can experience failing so they would know how it feels to fail...haha..okay this is becoming a hate letter...haha...i think i have to stop here before i can let myself fall in the depths of depression once again thinking over wasted past...and silly people whom i encountered in my life (^_^V

...last chapter in my college life i experienced tons of failures...i cried a lot often too when i get depress...haha...my dormates knew that...but from this i learned how to correct my failures and change this into new found knowledge making me much wiser that the smart ones...the reason why at the end the unexpected has paid off all the hardships 5x the loss i had (^_^)

So here i am once again opening another chapter in my life...this time i know that i can be better...after experiencing winning...and it doesn't take any medal or awards to show success in life.. XD